Being and Living

Inspired by Tham Chee Wah, Jin and Jackie, I have decided to start my own blog too. Not sure which direction this blog is going to go, I chose to focus on what I am facing in my life now. May Being. I am choosing to BE.


I have been away from my Malaysian home for 5 years. For that 5 years in the USA, I was always doing, finding, and projecting. Being in university, life was evolved around what society said was appropriate. After high school, university, and then marriage and babies. I was sucked into that sick-cycle-carousel and I was going round and round like a hamster in a hamster-wheel. After graduation, there was a voice in me that told me to defy all logical steps, which were either to look for a job or go on to pursue my Master Degree or to get married, and instead to leave for home.

On November 2006, I arrived back to Malacca, Malaysia not knowing the reasons that I am supposed to be here and what I am supposed to do with my life. All I know was that I am choosing to break out from the hamster wheel. I can only live a day at a time and see what unfolds.

So far I have been home 4 months, life has been surprising me day after day. My soul has been guiding me through this time. I have let go of my life in Oregon, USA and in process broke up with my boyfriend from there. I have been travelled on spiritual trips to Cambodia, and India. I have attended many wonderful seminars in Kuala Lumpur and Penang. Through all that, I have met so many wonderful people. My life has changed 180 degrees. Basically, I have been stripped naked of all that I took on for the last 25 years of my life and my perception about life has been altered drastically.

There was a lot of growth and pain but I feel a sense of lightness. Sense of freedom that I never felt before. I still do not know why I am here but I do know now that I am suppose to just BE and all good things will come to me.